Just wanted to do a very quick (as in bullet pointed quick!) update as I left a few things hanging last entry. I am in a terrible mood right now and have spent half my afternoon crying in frustration so it won't be the happiest of entries.
No the nights haven't gotten any better. They've gotten horrifically worse. Not only are we still dealing with night wakings, it is now a huge fight to even get the kid into bed in the first place and daytime naps seem to have bitten the dust as he just screams until I give up, even though he seems tired enough to want one. How. Does. This. Happen. To a child who has slept so well his whole life? ARRGGYYYYGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!
No I'm not pregnant. There is a not so small part of me that is rather relieved about that at this point. What a terrible thing to say but there it is.
I'm not in the best place right now. I'm starting to wonder if there might be more to it than just frustration over sleep issues. I mean, surely nobody gets this upset over a few bad nights (ok weeks) with a toddler? And yet I feel like I'm just not managing as well as I should be. I have no will to do anything, see anyone, go anywhere. I'm in a constant state of anxiety (whether I show it or not) and I'm never relaxed. Bedtime (Oliver's that is) used to be my 'chill' time and now it's been snatched away from me because I'm constantly on edge, knowing he's going to wake up. Now naptime seems to have gone too and I'm literally on duty 24/7. My brain just doesn't know how to stop anymore.
This could easily turn into a rant, I have so much to spill but too many people read this for me to be comfortable doing that now. So I'll quit while I'm ahead.
It'll all get better soon...... won't it?
This could easily turn into a rant, I have so much to spill but too many people read this for me to be comfortable doing that now. So I'll quit while I'm ahead.
It'll all get better soon...... won't it?